I know I know I know, I have let my blog go to long without updating. The very rare occasions that I get to chat with deal, this is the first thing he mentions. Even my daughter was wondering why I hadn’t updated as well. Hell I didn’t even know that she visits my blog regularly. Love you Brandy….lol.
At any rate I had a very exciting change of events to share so I figured I would force myself to spend a few minutes to share it here. Joe Dirt and the Puppy (Tinkerbelle) have finally come to terms with each other. Anyone reading this couldn’t possibly know how much this means to Suz and I. We were getting so close to giving jd away so that he could have a better life then what he has been having the last four months or so. Living in the garage is not what I would consider a happy life for a dog.
It all started a week or so ago with him actually tolerating her jumping in his face. He started off slow at first allowing only about ten or fifteen minutes of this aggravation before retreating back into the garage. Each day he gave her an even greater amount of time until which time the newness sort of wore off for Tinkerbelle as she was able to focus on other things rather then continually jumping in his face. After a few days he pretty much hung out the majority of the day with the family again. After observing his tolerance we decided to allow him to set his own limits with her where as from time to time he is just not in the mood or becomes dominant over dog treats which for the most part has little effect on her as she seems to be pretty much fearless. It usually only takes a stern voice from me to calm him down to the point that he doesn’t want to progress to a full on attack which is cool.
My last hope for the two of them was her going into heat which I figured would force him to choose pheromones over aggression. I actually pulled a loose tooth out of her mouth a week or two ago so I knew that if she was going to have a six month cycle she was getting close to ripening up. Thank god they sorted things out before she started smelling up the place and causing his horny behavior to kick in as there is nothing worse then a dude who is only interested in sex and not willing to build some kind of relationship first. We had jd fixed in his first year so there is no pressure for them to become family committed but he still has his humpy pillow (yea I know pretty sick isn’t it) that he sneaks off with on occasion and pounds the hell out of it resulting in…well you get the idea.
On another note, I will be taking my Poker Audition this week. To pass the audition I have to deal Texas Holdem $3/$6 limit, Omaha high/low, and Seven Card Stud, accurately manage multiple side pots in all three, ensure that the action is fast paced and protected at all times, calculate and retrieve the appropriate rake in a very discreet manner, remain diligent at all times to the misuse of angle shots, and to perform my responsibilities in a always friendly but quite and professionally efficient manner. I should be capable of dealing approximately 30 plus hands per hour of Texas Holdem, 20 plus per hour of Omaha, and somewhere around 16 plus an hour of 7 stud, which btw is not played in California what so ever. The only time I would ever be required to deal 7 card stud would be while working in Nevada or dealing in tournaments like the WSOP. Our school has 7 individuals who are still in Vegas dealing in this years WSOP. Their 6 to 7 week gig is supposed to gross each of them somewhere around 13K which I consider to be a pretty hardy reward when considering how up close and personal they are to some of the greatest poker players of all time
At any rate next week I begin the process of seeking employment. As of now the opportunities are not jumping out at me at all. I am going to explore all of my juice connections at first of which if none of them tend to expose some potential I will probably begin to start second guessing my decision to take this path and add a little depression to my already stressed out life. There is a new casino opening up at the end of the year which I think will pretty much pan out should I be forced to wait that long. A much more attractive opportunity is a new card room that is opening soon within miles of my house but they are experiencing some licensing issues at the moment so who knows how long that could take to pan out. July has shown to be the slowest month of the year for getting gigs dealing at parties that the colleges casino events division books. There is little money to be made dealing parties if your client does not tip but I have made upwards of $40 an hour at a few of them and gained much needed experience running live games.
Any way, I have typed my butt into being late for school now so I gotta wrap this up. I am sure once I get a real dealing job I will be using this blog to share some live game stories of which could very well be some useful information for any live game players. I found all of the angle shots to be very interesting in nature. If you do not know what they are, they are techniques used by players to deceive other players of which push the rules to the otter edges of acceptability. Players that have been deceived by an angle shots are typically the only ones who feel that the behavior is cheating. Once they have been shot they tend to employ these techniques themselves and consider them to basically fall into the category of skill and experience. My job as a dealer is to prevent them from being used in the wrong way which typically results from in an inexperienced user to commit an illegal act. The serious anger that sometimes results from being shot an angle is by far a major contributor to physical confrontations at most poker tables. For the most part, what fun is there if you can’t get a ring side seat to a fisty cuff rumble every now and then….lol.
jd
Monday, July 7, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Graduation Day Tuesday
I have put in somewhere around 50 hours now (on campus, another 20 or so at home) into my BlackJack Dealers school and believe that I now have the confidence needed to take the written test and live game audition on Tuesday. I was asked on Thursday if I would be interested in working some weekend parties dealing BJ as well so if anything I have shown enough talent to get noticed by the party director. This will be great practice which will come in handy for my real audition for a paying job at one of the Casino’s should that be the direction I decide to pursue.
I plan on starting the poker dealing course on Wednesday which from what I understand will take twice as long as the BJ course did. In the area of California that I live in, the Casino’s (all Indian owned Casino’s) are just now beginning to expand into their poker rooms to include Texas Holdem. I have been told that getting a BJ dealing gig now will be the best way to position myself to move into the poker dealing jobs as they become available. I still plan on looking into a few of the card rooms located in my area as well, as this was my original strategy to begin with. The dealing gigs in these card rooms are so good that there is little turn over so one has to really score to get in on this action. The only draw back in working at these card rooms is the benefits are no where close to as good at the Casino’s offer.
Another draw back in working the Casino’s is the distance that they are from my home. Gas has just now reached $4.10 a gallon with a speculated peak of somewhere around $4.75 by summers end. Sixty miles one way will result in somewhere around $200 a week just in gas. That is totally wack.
Edited out some information that I have been warned could cause regular AP players to experience problems with getting their withdraws processed quickly. I in no way would ever want to be looked upon as being responsible for something like this so I have taken this commenter's recommendation and removed the content in question.
jd
I plan on starting the poker dealing course on Wednesday which from what I understand will take twice as long as the BJ course did. In the area of California that I live in, the Casino’s (all Indian owned Casino’s) are just now beginning to expand into their poker rooms to include Texas Holdem. I have been told that getting a BJ dealing gig now will be the best way to position myself to move into the poker dealing jobs as they become available. I still plan on looking into a few of the card rooms located in my area as well, as this was my original strategy to begin with. The dealing gigs in these card rooms are so good that there is little turn over so one has to really score to get in on this action. The only draw back in working at these card rooms is the benefits are no where close to as good at the Casino’s offer.
Another draw back in working the Casino’s is the distance that they are from my home. Gas has just now reached $4.10 a gallon with a speculated peak of somewhere around $4.75 by summers end. Sixty miles one way will result in somewhere around $200 a week just in gas. That is totally wack.
Edited out some information that I have been warned could cause regular AP players to experience problems with getting their withdraws processed quickly. I in no way would ever want to be looked upon as being responsible for something like this so I have taken this commenter's recommendation and removed the content in question.
jd
Sunday, May 18, 2008
My Lack of Blog Posts..
Hello to the few folks that do stop by to read my blog… And thanks again for stopping by. Just wanted to let everyone know why I haven’t been updating as much here lately. I started Dealers College last week and have been going every day to learn both Black Jack Dealing as well as Poker, including all three genres, Texas Holdem, Omaha, and 7-Stud. I initially started to go through the Poker course first as this is my primary goal to deal poker, specifically Texas Holdem, however ¾’s of the way through the first day I found out that taking the black jack school first was a much better idea. Not only will that get me hired faster then the poker school, it teaches you the basics of chip cutting, shuffling, and game protection much faster. So as a result I jumped stream the very first day. I found that the BJ Instructor is much more on the ball with instructing as compared to the Poker Instructor as well. She actually has a structured process that she takes you through, teaching small portions at a time moving up in difficulty.
This Monday we actually get to put the Ace’s into the deck and start learning how to pay out the insurance and bj hands, wooot wooot. Thus far all we have learnt and practiced is single color bets, barber poll bets (multi colored chips in one bet), shuffling, chip cutting, and payouts for those types of bets. Oh yea, and what hand to use in what position on the table. Left hand used in the first two positions, right or left optional in the third position, and right hand only in positions 4 through 7. It sounds so frickin easy until you try to train your brain to remember this crap. That is why practice is so important. I plan on being the best at what I do and this has required much more practice then the normal donk wants to put forth. Ultimately I would love to fall into a floor mans position which through a lot of extra effort on my part I figure I should be able to achieve this goal pretty easily.
As it stands right now a dealer at any of the casinos in this area typically make a little over 50K a years including tips. That’s to start so I figure a card room gig or a floor man’s position should easily take down 75K a year to start which will be fine when considering the benefits that goes with it. I have heard that the Texas Holdem and Omaha dealers at the card room where I would like to work are taking down close to 100K a year and get to keep their own tips. The larger casinos collect all tips and share them with all the dealers equally. Not sure if I like that policy or not. It just seems like the individual collecting and counting all the tips has one hell of an opportunity to skim off the top without anyone ever being able to prove a thing.
The Dealers College I am going to does weekend events every weekend as well and I have already gotten an in on that gig as the guy that runs the place use to work with my wife years ago. Two of the Poker instructors are also heading to Vegas this next week as they have gotten jobs dealing for the WSOP this year. Bob has been a dealer for the WSOP two years running now and told me that you make about 13K for the six weeks of work. There is also the possibility of getting on permanent with their traveling group if you’re good enough. They pay airfare and hotel and have events about every other six weeks.
All in all I think this is going to be a great way to spend my last ten years of working. I haven’t had a lot of luck finding a job doing what I have done for the last 20 years feeling that my age has had something to do with that. At age 52 with no college degree I am not as hirable as these young whipper snappers fresh out of college.
On another note I have taken all my cash off of AP this week. I am totally tired of their lack luster performance which continues to grow worse and worse. I am the type of person that feels that if you receive bad service from a company the best way to express your dissatisfaction with that company is to not buy their products or use their services any longer. This is where the form of advertising called Word of Mouth became such an important factor years ago because companies actually worked very hard to ensure that they received as little negative word of mouth advertising as possible. AP shows no signs of improvement imo, nor do they appear to be doing much about all of their fuck ups. They can’t even setup a tournament correctly these days. I stopped going to McDonalds years ago because it seemed like every single order I placed there was given to me incorrectly. You can only Say God Damn McDonalds so many times before you discover that in order to reduce the number of times one uses God’s name in vane is to stop eating at McDonalds. I can’t wait to see how long it takes to get my check from AP in the mail. I am sure that I have not uttered the phrase God Damn AP for the last time.
Well enough on that subject. I figure I will be pretty much done with the Black Jack portion by the end of this next week. I just missed a group audition date last week at one of the bigger casinos in our area. Our instructor showed us a prime example of what most people do after completing their course. Many of the graduates showed up the day before their audition to practice, expecting the instructor to be at their beckoned call to help them get ready for their interview. She clearly illustrated the reason to return to the school and practice continuously until you find your job as she had no time for these idiots who completed their training months ago and never once returned to practice until the day before their audition.
Individuals who have played the game for years still have problems when it comes to protecting the game and mentally calculating 2 to 1 odds to pay a bj, never mind even thinking about how to figure insurance amounts when the dealer has an ace. BJ dealers are responsible to nine separate individuals when dealing to a full table, the seven players, the floor boss, and the eye in the sky and as such must perform all requirements in such a way that each and everyone one of those individuals has no problem at all observing every single movement made at the table. In a sense you have a total of 18 plus eyes on every move you make at all times. Thus far this has been one hell of a lot of pressure to deal with let alone remembering the exact method of which to do 100% of every action you will be confronted with while dealing at a table. There are no less then 1000 moves required of which all must be memorized and practiced until you can do them all without thinking. Much tougher then I would have ever thought this was going to be.
At any rate, enough rambling. I will try to get back to post an update when ever possible. Thanks again for stopping by. I have about $4 left on AP which I will try to roll into a forum tourney buyin but if not good luck to all you forum brothers and sisters. I will continue to stop by the forum from time to time to see what kind of trouble I can cause.
Until then…. jd
This Monday we actually get to put the Ace’s into the deck and start learning how to pay out the insurance and bj hands, wooot wooot. Thus far all we have learnt and practiced is single color bets, barber poll bets (multi colored chips in one bet), shuffling, chip cutting, and payouts for those types of bets. Oh yea, and what hand to use in what position on the table. Left hand used in the first two positions, right or left optional in the third position, and right hand only in positions 4 through 7. It sounds so frickin easy until you try to train your brain to remember this crap. That is why practice is so important. I plan on being the best at what I do and this has required much more practice then the normal donk wants to put forth. Ultimately I would love to fall into a floor mans position which through a lot of extra effort on my part I figure I should be able to achieve this goal pretty easily.
As it stands right now a dealer at any of the casinos in this area typically make a little over 50K a years including tips. That’s to start so I figure a card room gig or a floor man’s position should easily take down 75K a year to start which will be fine when considering the benefits that goes with it. I have heard that the Texas Holdem and Omaha dealers at the card room where I would like to work are taking down close to 100K a year and get to keep their own tips. The larger casinos collect all tips and share them with all the dealers equally. Not sure if I like that policy or not. It just seems like the individual collecting and counting all the tips has one hell of an opportunity to skim off the top without anyone ever being able to prove a thing.
The Dealers College I am going to does weekend events every weekend as well and I have already gotten an in on that gig as the guy that runs the place use to work with my wife years ago. Two of the Poker instructors are also heading to Vegas this next week as they have gotten jobs dealing for the WSOP this year. Bob has been a dealer for the WSOP two years running now and told me that you make about 13K for the six weeks of work. There is also the possibility of getting on permanent with their traveling group if you’re good enough. They pay airfare and hotel and have events about every other six weeks.
All in all I think this is going to be a great way to spend my last ten years of working. I haven’t had a lot of luck finding a job doing what I have done for the last 20 years feeling that my age has had something to do with that. At age 52 with no college degree I am not as hirable as these young whipper snappers fresh out of college.
On another note I have taken all my cash off of AP this week. I am totally tired of their lack luster performance which continues to grow worse and worse. I am the type of person that feels that if you receive bad service from a company the best way to express your dissatisfaction with that company is to not buy their products or use their services any longer. This is where the form of advertising called Word of Mouth became such an important factor years ago because companies actually worked very hard to ensure that they received as little negative word of mouth advertising as possible. AP shows no signs of improvement imo, nor do they appear to be doing much about all of their fuck ups. They can’t even setup a tournament correctly these days. I stopped going to McDonalds years ago because it seemed like every single order I placed there was given to me incorrectly. You can only Say God Damn McDonalds so many times before you discover that in order to reduce the number of times one uses God’s name in vane is to stop eating at McDonalds. I can’t wait to see how long it takes to get my check from AP in the mail. I am sure that I have not uttered the phrase God Damn AP for the last time.
Well enough on that subject. I figure I will be pretty much done with the Black Jack portion by the end of this next week. I just missed a group audition date last week at one of the bigger casinos in our area. Our instructor showed us a prime example of what most people do after completing their course. Many of the graduates showed up the day before their audition to practice, expecting the instructor to be at their beckoned call to help them get ready for their interview. She clearly illustrated the reason to return to the school and practice continuously until you find your job as she had no time for these idiots who completed their training months ago and never once returned to practice until the day before their audition.
Individuals who have played the game for years still have problems when it comes to protecting the game and mentally calculating 2 to 1 odds to pay a bj, never mind even thinking about how to figure insurance amounts when the dealer has an ace. BJ dealers are responsible to nine separate individuals when dealing to a full table, the seven players, the floor boss, and the eye in the sky and as such must perform all requirements in such a way that each and everyone one of those individuals has no problem at all observing every single movement made at the table. In a sense you have a total of 18 plus eyes on every move you make at all times. Thus far this has been one hell of a lot of pressure to deal with let alone remembering the exact method of which to do 100% of every action you will be confronted with while dealing at a table. There are no less then 1000 moves required of which all must be memorized and practiced until you can do them all without thinking. Much tougher then I would have ever thought this was going to be.
At any rate, enough rambling. I will try to get back to post an update when ever possible. Thanks again for stopping by. I have about $4 left on AP which I will try to roll into a forum tourney buyin but if not good luck to all you forum brothers and sisters. I will continue to stop by the forum from time to time to see what kind of trouble I can cause.
Until then…. jd
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Hopefully three’s a Charm
I truly impressed myself last Thursday by winning the AP Forum tournament yet again. This was my second win in three weeks which in my opinion screams that I am getting much better at this game. The forum tourney is filled with many great players from the forum as well as some unknowns new to both the forum and tourney itself. The match is played using the Turbo Blind Structure, second only to the Ultra Turbo, with blinds increasing every five minutes. The $10+$1 buyin forum tourney field remains quite small with only the top three positions getting paid, however, when you consider the top prize of this weeks tourney was $95 added to the $150+$12 seat to the weekly AP 75K guaranteed tourney awarded to the winner, the risk reward factor is huge.
I was very fortunate to have not been seated at the same table as my mentor and best buddy dealace1 as he has taught me just about everything I know and can easily exploit my weaknesses without hardly any effort at all. It was only fitting that I give myself a better chance at the match by placing a bounty on his head early on in the match only to have him place a bigger bounty on my head. Although all in fun, the prospect of having everyone gunning for you does indeed reduce your chances tremendously. I finished the match heads up with Vikesfan whom I have never played heads up before but was able to get the cards needed to slowly shred his stack down to nothing.
After my first forum win I was able to cash in the 75k tourney taking 37th for a payday of $265. This week’s tourney I felt that I played much better and shoved my AJ with a small M for the purpose of stealing the blinds but ran into two additional shove playing an AK and JJ. There were three hearts flopped and I had the nut heart but never found the fourth heart on the turn or river. Had I hit that hand I would have easily placed not only in the money but probably been able to score my biggest cash ever. This is the element of the game that I believe luck plays such a big roll because I got my money in correctly and luck could have gone either way for me there. I went out in 87th place just thirty three places out of the cash but felt like I could not have played any better then I did. With my cash in my first attempt at this tourney I went into this last weeks tourney with not only a well selected strategy, but for the first time ever the confidence that I have the skills to play at this level with a very good percentage of not only cashing but going very deep as well. The 75K tourney draws a very large number of online pro’s so to cash in this match is not just a fluke or luck by any means.
I am now looking to my next opportunity to play in this tourney which hopefully three’s a charm….
I was very fortunate to have not been seated at the same table as my mentor and best buddy dealace1 as he has taught me just about everything I know and can easily exploit my weaknesses without hardly any effort at all. It was only fitting that I give myself a better chance at the match by placing a bounty on his head early on in the match only to have him place a bigger bounty on my head. Although all in fun, the prospect of having everyone gunning for you does indeed reduce your chances tremendously. I finished the match heads up with Vikesfan whom I have never played heads up before but was able to get the cards needed to slowly shred his stack down to nothing.
After my first forum win I was able to cash in the 75k tourney taking 37th for a payday of $265. This week’s tourney I felt that I played much better and shoved my AJ with a small M for the purpose of stealing the blinds but ran into two additional shove playing an AK and JJ. There were three hearts flopped and I had the nut heart but never found the fourth heart on the turn or river. Had I hit that hand I would have easily placed not only in the money but probably been able to score my biggest cash ever. This is the element of the game that I believe luck plays such a big roll because I got my money in correctly and luck could have gone either way for me there. I went out in 87th place just thirty three places out of the cash but felt like I could not have played any better then I did. With my cash in my first attempt at this tourney I went into this last weeks tourney with not only a well selected strategy, but for the first time ever the confidence that I have the skills to play at this level with a very good percentage of not only cashing but going very deep as well. The 75K tourney draws a very large number of online pro’s so to cash in this match is not just a fluke or luck by any means.
I am now looking to my next opportunity to play in this tourney which hopefully three’s a charm….
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
This frickin game is really pissin me off
Playing in a satty to the 100K on stars tonight and doing ok. Took a couple small pots to get my stack up to around 2.4K and followed a few hands later with QQ bringing me to 6.5K, two hands later I am dealt AA from mid pos. I check my coast potential and I am in 11th place with 42 to go, top 27 qual, so I still have to play some poker before coasting. The villain from utg shoves in with a little over 4k, 2 folds and I feel that I have to call. Rather then have someone else come along I decide to shove instead of call. Villain flips up 88 to my AA and hit a set on the flop crippling me to around 2k in chips. Exactly four hands later from utg I get AA again. I feel like folding the facking cards right there. I totally felt that a 23 off was a better hand at that very moment. I raise 3x to $450 from the utg pos all along while chat is still going on from my last adventure with this same hand so I figure cool it will be a funny hand once I get my money back. co+1 calls my raise, and the bb goes all in with 1875 in chips, the caller has 750 left so I do the exact same thing thinking the exact same thoughts in regards to the number of players in the hand and shove hoping that the caller will go away, but now we have three all in the hand. I turn up the AA, the caller in the co+1 turns up KQ, and the bb turns up JJ. The board comes out 7,7,3,6, (party starting to get louder in my pants) facking J.
This is what causes the typical beginner to on line poker the most problems and pretty much restricts their ability to get any better at the game. I no for a fact that I will not call a shove with AA again for a very long time or at least until which time I can feel confident that my opponent has some sort of a brain. I would just a soon go blind then to play a hand that has so few ways of being played only to have it repeat itself as a failure multiple times in a row. There is just no way to play these donks and win from skills alone. At this level of play the entire game is nothing but luck because the players are playing in ways impossible to predict. I truly think that I need to move up to a level that will allow for skill as compared to luck and see what happens. A level where the player have been playing for a year or two and has at least a clue as what not to take chances with. The methods taught and written in books come from many years of playing the game at a level of which everyone at the table have a working knowledge of how to play a hand and are not the methods proven to work in the micro levels filled with players who haven't the slightest idea of how to play. I am now beginning to understand why the chat box fills with negative banter after a donk plays so stupid and yet still wins the pot. I find it very frustrating that I have given so much time to learning the proper way to play only to be beat up again and again by these thoughtless, lucky ass donks. There should be a skills test you have to take before getting into any match and the results of that test determine what type of players your matched against.
End of rant.
jd
This is what causes the typical beginner to on line poker the most problems and pretty much restricts their ability to get any better at the game. I no for a fact that I will not call a shove with AA again for a very long time or at least until which time I can feel confident that my opponent has some sort of a brain. I would just a soon go blind then to play a hand that has so few ways of being played only to have it repeat itself as a failure multiple times in a row. There is just no way to play these donks and win from skills alone. At this level of play the entire game is nothing but luck because the players are playing in ways impossible to predict. I truly think that I need to move up to a level that will allow for skill as compared to luck and see what happens. A level where the player have been playing for a year or two and has at least a clue as what not to take chances with. The methods taught and written in books come from many years of playing the game at a level of which everyone at the table have a working knowledge of how to play a hand and are not the methods proven to work in the micro levels filled with players who haven't the slightest idea of how to play. I am now beginning to understand why the chat box fills with negative banter after a donk plays so stupid and yet still wins the pot. I find it very frustrating that I have given so much time to learning the proper way to play only to be beat up again and again by these thoughtless, lucky ass donks. There should be a skills test you have to take before getting into any match and the results of that test determine what type of players your matched against.
End of rant.
jd
Monday, April 28, 2008
Have we lost one of the greats?
Well I just went over to Freddy's blog today and found that it has either been closed or restricted. This concerns me big time. I chatted with Freddy today for well over an hour or two and boy did I have allot to say. It reminded me of my getting stoned days where as you get really deep into thought and try to figure out the meaning of life. At any rate I was able to express some of the reasons I feel that he needs to pack up his shit and come to America but he still seems hesitant. All I know is that Suzanne and I have pretty much happily put some plans that we just came up with last week on hold in order to fulfill our promise of showing Freddy around America as well as work on our goal of working on his depression.
Suzanne and I have become so very close with Freddy in the last few months. Suzanne went from never ever using IM Chat to spending hours in her office chatting with Freddy so we both feel that we have known Freddy for many years now and have pretty much had to sit by and watch his life continue to spiral downward on a daily basis. Day after day Suzanne and I watched as his spirit was being eaten away resulting in his only working harder and harder, giving even more of himself looking for the end of the negative swing that everyone around him assured him was there.
I can only imagine the tremendously empty feeling that he must have in the pit of his stomach on a daily basis after going from such a profitable professional poker player, making every single penny of his income through grinding a huge number of hours each week sitting in the same uncomfortable chair hour after hour day after day month after month playing poker and having pretty much the lead way to make as much or as little as he needed to fulfill his lifestyle and reward himself just enough to start it all over again the following week. He is by far the most goal oriented individual that I have ever come across in the poker community, every Sunday planning his week, setting his weekly hours and calculating to within a few dollars his weekly take home pay, and for years achieving the expected results each and every time without fail. I feel that now something has changed and no matter what he try’s to do to fix the problem it only seems to grow worse. In this case the years of experience has been his worst enemy, well that and coupled with the fact that all of his closest friends are also poker players who have all come to understand that no matter what, a bad swing will eventually bottom out and return to normal just as sure as the sun will shine tomorrow. Not sure that I believe that as a rule etched in stone any more and I am certain that Freddy has second thoughts about that rule as well.
I definitely feel that his game is broken and have railed Freddy hundreds of times in the last few months and I too notice the plain and simple fact that his game has turned so fucking unlucky that there just seems to be some outside powers at work here. Lord knows that he has tried to fix the problem in every imaginable way possible and even has had a strong pool to pull from leaving no shortage of suggestions coming from some pretty dam great players all with negative results. Now you take all of this and consider that not one individual that he comes into contact with on a daily basis has suggested that he quite playing poker and get a real job, all except for my wife but she would just a soon see poker go away forever anyway. Each and every individual pleaded with Freddy to not just walk away from his poker and to just hang in there until it turns around, of which they all promise will happen eventually. Hell Freddy and Deal are the ones that have taught me this rule of the game.
Wow that was a lot of writing just to get to my point that this has to be the reason for shutting down his blog, not playing one hand of poker in four days now, and walking a thin line to fading into the woodwork never to be heard from again. I feel that Freddy will indeed survive and do what ever it takes to not end up homeless. I am just sorry that I, one of his closest friends never opened up my eyes until now and continued to push him on and on and on and on to keep at it well beyond the stopping point, or more appropriately the point of no return. Freddy told me over a week ago that he had really done it now and had no idea what the hell he was going to do now. Hell that could very well have been two weeks ago. I am so blind.
Freddy my man I am here for you brother, oops my bad, Suzanne and I are here for you brother. Please do not just disappear from all of the people who love you bro. Allow us all or at least Suzanne and I to join you on your path back to the land of sanity where the simple things are all we need to be happy. I know you probably feel pretty darn defeated, beat up, unsure of what to do and when, or whether you are even capable of doing anything at all without falling square on your ass, but just know I have been there before as well (and not to sound so sure that things will get better, similar to the same thing everyone said about the reversal of your down swing) and can assure you, no wait, I feel confident when I say that tomorrow will still come no matter what and by taking baby steps at first you will find the confidence to widen your stride in time. Tomorrow is the first day of a new direction my friend of which I would love to explore along with you, not in front of you nor behind but with you step for step side by side, for once we get to where ever we are going we both will be stronger and wiser and ready to take on anything that this dam life can throw at us in the future.
Luv u my Brother!
Steve and Suzanne
Suzanne and I have become so very close with Freddy in the last few months. Suzanne went from never ever using IM Chat to spending hours in her office chatting with Freddy so we both feel that we have known Freddy for many years now and have pretty much had to sit by and watch his life continue to spiral downward on a daily basis. Day after day Suzanne and I watched as his spirit was being eaten away resulting in his only working harder and harder, giving even more of himself looking for the end of the negative swing that everyone around him assured him was there.
I can only imagine the tremendously empty feeling that he must have in the pit of his stomach on a daily basis after going from such a profitable professional poker player, making every single penny of his income through grinding a huge number of hours each week sitting in the same uncomfortable chair hour after hour day after day month after month playing poker and having pretty much the lead way to make as much or as little as he needed to fulfill his lifestyle and reward himself just enough to start it all over again the following week. He is by far the most goal oriented individual that I have ever come across in the poker community, every Sunday planning his week, setting his weekly hours and calculating to within a few dollars his weekly take home pay, and for years achieving the expected results each and every time without fail. I feel that now something has changed and no matter what he try’s to do to fix the problem it only seems to grow worse. In this case the years of experience has been his worst enemy, well that and coupled with the fact that all of his closest friends are also poker players who have all come to understand that no matter what, a bad swing will eventually bottom out and return to normal just as sure as the sun will shine tomorrow. Not sure that I believe that as a rule etched in stone any more and I am certain that Freddy has second thoughts about that rule as well.
I definitely feel that his game is broken and have railed Freddy hundreds of times in the last few months and I too notice the plain and simple fact that his game has turned so fucking unlucky that there just seems to be some outside powers at work here. Lord knows that he has tried to fix the problem in every imaginable way possible and even has had a strong pool to pull from leaving no shortage of suggestions coming from some pretty dam great players all with negative results. Now you take all of this and consider that not one individual that he comes into contact with on a daily basis has suggested that he quite playing poker and get a real job, all except for my wife but she would just a soon see poker go away forever anyway. Each and every individual pleaded with Freddy to not just walk away from his poker and to just hang in there until it turns around, of which they all promise will happen eventually. Hell Freddy and Deal are the ones that have taught me this rule of the game.
Wow that was a lot of writing just to get to my point that this has to be the reason for shutting down his blog, not playing one hand of poker in four days now, and walking a thin line to fading into the woodwork never to be heard from again. I feel that Freddy will indeed survive and do what ever it takes to not end up homeless. I am just sorry that I, one of his closest friends never opened up my eyes until now and continued to push him on and on and on and on to keep at it well beyond the stopping point, or more appropriately the point of no return. Freddy told me over a week ago that he had really done it now and had no idea what the hell he was going to do now. Hell that could very well have been two weeks ago. I am so blind.
Freddy my man I am here for you brother, oops my bad, Suzanne and I are here for you brother. Please do not just disappear from all of the people who love you bro. Allow us all or at least Suzanne and I to join you on your path back to the land of sanity where the simple things are all we need to be happy. I know you probably feel pretty darn defeated, beat up, unsure of what to do and when, or whether you are even capable of doing anything at all without falling square on your ass, but just know I have been there before as well (and not to sound so sure that things will get better, similar to the same thing everyone said about the reversal of your down swing) and can assure you, no wait, I feel confident when I say that tomorrow will still come no matter what and by taking baby steps at first you will find the confidence to widen your stride in time. Tomorrow is the first day of a new direction my friend of which I would love to explore along with you, not in front of you nor behind but with you step for step side by side, for once we get to where ever we are going we both will be stronger and wiser and ready to take on anything that this dam life can throw at us in the future.
Luv u my Brother!
Steve and Suzanne
Monday, April 14, 2008
Exciting live game last night
So Suz has been out of town since last Friday and comes home tonight. I figured last night would be a great time to head over to the card room before she comes home. I arrived later then I would have liked but had to go to the bank, Walmart and get my car washed before heading over. I get to the Phoenix and there are 7 names on the list for the 4/8 tables so I tell myself I will give it an hour to see if I get on or not. One nice thing about playing there is that you can eat for free while playing at the tables. I have Robert serve me a Tangery Tonic and sit back and observe all the activity in the room. I know all of the employees there as this is the place my wife worked at for years so I have an advantage of getting the inside scoop on what is going on around the place. Nicole and Robert are discussing how many Patron Shots the one table has had and Robert is thinking of cutting them off. It appears that there are three low twenty’s kids at the table trying to get this Asian gal drunk off her ass. Fifteen minutes later Nicole mention that the Asian gal’s husband has just gotten involved by coming over and drinking her shots before she gets a chance to drink any more. This started some banter back and forth between her and her husband and the three yahoos at the table. Robert decides that is enough for now but allows one more drink to be served to the gal because she missed her last one.
I think all this is great stuff to watch and decided that I would like to get a closer seat to the action. I ask Steve the floor man to get me to that table which is a 4/8 kill table and slipped him a $5 to ensure quick placement. Ten minutes later I am being seated in the #5 seat directly across from the dealer. The number one seat was the drunker then hell Asian gal and to her right a mouthy drunk regular who was about 24ish, and to his right two more drunk early twenty something’s. In seat eight was this very large African American fellow who was playing a very lose aggressive game and taking down quite a few pots. The guy to his right had a stack of chips reminiscent to Jamey Gold and was playing pretty tight.
Long story short the punk next to the Asian gal was a very mouthy sort of dude and continually used the f word which many called foul on of which he would reply I don’t give a shit I will leave any time and would repeat the f bomb over and over just to be an ass. Play went on for quite some time and I pretty much got into only two hands blinding away at least half my stack. After many hands with the mouth stating he had a set and everyone should fold but showed crap hands this setup some hellasish bantering between the black guy and the mouth. They would continue to chase hands with each other only to say things like you just got punked etc…
Well on one hand the mouth stood up when winning a hand and said take that bitch at which time many at the table said hey watch your language. Fuck that he said the dude is a bitch and I will say what ever I want. Steve the floor man said oh no you wont followed by the guy stating that he would just cash out and leave. That is when the black guy said I am gonna cash out as well meaning that he was going to go outside with the guy. Well the mouth proceeded to repeat the bitch word yet again and that is when the very large African American walked around the back of the table and let him have it. One punch almost put the dude over the rail. All I remember after that was the whole place coming to their feet and two very small security guards running into the door. The mouth started yelling that he wanted the cops called so that he could press charges. No one seemed to be on his side at all. I had already picked up all of my chips and figured that this match was not going to go well for quite some time and decided to leave. Before I walked away for the table I made it a point to get the mouth to look me right in the eye and said you my friend are one dumb ass bitch and you got what you had coming dude.
I went to the bar and let Kim the new bar tender and Nicole know exactly what had happened and told them good bye. In my opinion the staff did not act appropriately or early enough to defuse this situation. Early on when I first sat down and heard and saw how this guy was behaving I asked him what online site he played at. His answer was I don’t play at any online sites only live games. He reminded me of many of the loud mouthed ass holes you run into online. He also reminded me of the young blond headed kid I seen playing in the wsop on tv as well. Can’t nor would I ever want to remember his name so that last line is hit or miss as far as you knowing who I might be talking about. Who ever said drunks and Holdem is +ev for the other players. Well I obviously haven’t learnt enough about the game to work that kind of atmosphere to my advantage. But then again I didn’t really sit down with enough cash to make an honest go of it. I sat down with $100 and left with around $30 after the entertainment was over. I did have a front row seat for the fight though and a very nice dinner so fight and a dinner is worth $70 to me any day.
jd
I think all this is great stuff to watch and decided that I would like to get a closer seat to the action. I ask Steve the floor man to get me to that table which is a 4/8 kill table and slipped him a $5 to ensure quick placement. Ten minutes later I am being seated in the #5 seat directly across from the dealer. The number one seat was the drunker then hell Asian gal and to her right a mouthy drunk regular who was about 24ish, and to his right two more drunk early twenty something’s. In seat eight was this very large African American fellow who was playing a very lose aggressive game and taking down quite a few pots. The guy to his right had a stack of chips reminiscent to Jamey Gold and was playing pretty tight.
Long story short the punk next to the Asian gal was a very mouthy sort of dude and continually used the f word which many called foul on of which he would reply I don’t give a shit I will leave any time and would repeat the f bomb over and over just to be an ass. Play went on for quite some time and I pretty much got into only two hands blinding away at least half my stack. After many hands with the mouth stating he had a set and everyone should fold but showed crap hands this setup some hellasish bantering between the black guy and the mouth. They would continue to chase hands with each other only to say things like you just got punked etc…
Well on one hand the mouth stood up when winning a hand and said take that bitch at which time many at the table said hey watch your language. Fuck that he said the dude is a bitch and I will say what ever I want. Steve the floor man said oh no you wont followed by the guy stating that he would just cash out and leave. That is when the black guy said I am gonna cash out as well meaning that he was going to go outside with the guy. Well the mouth proceeded to repeat the bitch word yet again and that is when the very large African American walked around the back of the table and let him have it. One punch almost put the dude over the rail. All I remember after that was the whole place coming to their feet and two very small security guards running into the door. The mouth started yelling that he wanted the cops called so that he could press charges. No one seemed to be on his side at all. I had already picked up all of my chips and figured that this match was not going to go well for quite some time and decided to leave. Before I walked away for the table I made it a point to get the mouth to look me right in the eye and said you my friend are one dumb ass bitch and you got what you had coming dude.
I went to the bar and let Kim the new bar tender and Nicole know exactly what had happened and told them good bye. In my opinion the staff did not act appropriately or early enough to defuse this situation. Early on when I first sat down and heard and saw how this guy was behaving I asked him what online site he played at. His answer was I don’t play at any online sites only live games. He reminded me of many of the loud mouthed ass holes you run into online. He also reminded me of the young blond headed kid I seen playing in the wsop on tv as well. Can’t nor would I ever want to remember his name so that last line is hit or miss as far as you knowing who I might be talking about. Who ever said drunks and Holdem is +ev for the other players. Well I obviously haven’t learnt enough about the game to work that kind of atmosphere to my advantage. But then again I didn’t really sit down with enough cash to make an honest go of it. I sat down with $100 and left with around $30 after the entertainment was over. I did have a front row seat for the fight though and a very nice dinner so fight and a dinner is worth $70 to me any day.
jd
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Tinkerbelle goes all in!
If you look closely at the picture below you may see an image of the Virgin Mary, or possibly an outline of Jesus, or better yet look even closer and you may see a royal flush. If you’re in the bb you may even see dollar signs. My advice would be to just limp in and eventually you will be able to read the word VISA. The picture is of a piece of a pigs ear that measures 7/8”x1" and is 1 ¼ of an inch from corner to corner, or about the size of one quarter of a playing card. Pig’s ears are commonly sold in pet stores as a dog’s chewable treat. Our pet has been eating them for years without ever having a problem.
As many of you know, Suz and I doubled up last week going from pet to pets. The new addition Tinkerbelle is pictured below in an earlier post. Get a read on those cute little eyes, who wouldn’t love a face like that, but who knows what hand she is really playing. I am currently working on getting a better read from my opponents but she fooled me big time… I figured I was shoving my way into guilt free poker for a long time. Hell I could of bought a Harley for the money I have in that little cutie pie.
The pic of the golden pig’s ear above was removed from Tinkerbelle’s throat yesterday. When attempting to take the small piece of pig’s ear away from her so that she would not choke on it she growled and like a donk swallowed it whole. This was followed by an episode of choking, my finger going down her throat in an attempt to remove it, vomiting up foamy white crap, another choking episode and additional projectile vomit all over Suz’s chest.
Next day the puppy was very sick and after looking at her gums which had turned gray we went online to investigate. The first article we found mentioned bloat and said to go to the vet immediately. We made a call to our local vet who said to take her to another vet as an emergency patient. We called that vet and they said to take her to yet another vet even farther away immediately. Long story short we had to drive an hour to get to the VCA Vet on the other side of town.
They checked her out and took x-rays (at a $140 a pop) and found something lodged in her esophagus which required removal or she would die (game over). That would require her to be placed under Anastasia, a tube put down her throat, followed by a scope sent down to find the foreign object. They found it and then sent another tube down with a clamp attached to pull it back out. The picture above is what was removed from Tinkerbelle’s throat.
Total Buyin, $1800. Then they had the gull to demand that we buy a special dog food for her at who knows how much per can. Kiss my what…..? Instead I stopped at the store on the way home to buy purple cool-aid to add the poison to that I plan on drinking when I get home
Suz leaves for Massachusetts on Friday so Joe Dirt and I are going to deep fry the new puppy and have our selves a feast of sorts. If only I was better at poker I would not worry about the $4,500.00 I have in this dog as of today. We have only had the dog a total of eleven days now, by her first birthday she could be worth well over a wsop buyin.
Let me see, if we breed her and she has one puppy like her mom had when she was born, depending on the sex of the puppy, male worth about 1k, female worth about 1.5K, it should only take her four years before I can see a profit. This dog is a donk. She is about as good a money maker as I am at poker, hence donk’s attract. I figured hell even though I paid $2500 for the dog she will make that money back after two litters. What a bad beat….Before everyone goes flying off the hammer, just know that I still love Tinkerbelle very much and will only hock/pimp her out should I ever need poker money
jd
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Monster hand in the UTG Pos.
I have been for the last few weeks limpin from utg with a monster hand with somewhat good success, but will change that strategy after tonight. When losing a hand I immediately have froze time and replayed the hand in my head to see what I could do differently to have won the hand.
I was dealt QQ utg so I limped into the hand. The dip shit to my left limped as well as did one other before the bb called. The flop was 478 and I lead out with $750 into a 1k pot. Guy to my left raised to 1k so I shoved and he called. The ass hole had 56 of hearts for a straight from the flop. The only way that I could have had a chance at winning that hand would of been to raise 3x the bb from utg. Not sure whether this is a standard bet from that pos but I know for sure I would have won this hand had I raised him out of the pot preflop.
Any thoughts?
jd
I was dealt QQ utg so I limped into the hand. The dip shit to my left limped as well as did one other before the bb called. The flop was 478 and I lead out with $750 into a 1k pot. Guy to my left raised to 1k so I shoved and he called. The ass hole had 56 of hearts for a straight from the flop. The only way that I could have had a chance at winning that hand would of been to raise 3x the bb from utg. Not sure whether this is a standard bet from that pos but I know for sure I would have won this hand had I raised him out of the pot preflop.
Any thoughts?
jd
I Re-Newed my Donk Status Last night
I can't frickin believe it, I did it again. Playing in a Satty to the Stars Sunday 100K tourney and I am what I feel is safe but still have a small amount of apprehension as to whether I am good or not. I am dealt AA from the bb and my opponent in the co+1 goes all in. There are 9 more to go out and I have just under 5K in chips. It is only after I call his shove which he had me covered by about 200 chips that I say to myself I am a dumb ass.
The cards are flipped and he shows KK, the board runs 8TJ followed by fourth street of a Q followed by me slipping into the frickin river with a K.....Holy f'in crap. In staring at the screen for the rest of the match I found that I would have easily had over 2.5k in chips as a cushion.
I learned my lesson on this a while back when deal was teaching me the satty strategy where as I had it made in the shade and got dealt AA and decided to go against his advice and played the dam hand. The board went four diamonds and wouldn't you know it he had the fifth diamond to win the hand putting me out with only three to go. Took me hours to stop beating my head against the wall that night.
Oh well, I swore I learned my lesson that night but obv I didn't. So this only goes to confirm that the hardest element of this game is by far the self control aspect. It's one thing to get your chips in when ahead only to deal with the beats you take once in, but it is a completely different thing when playing satty's and knowing your safe and then let ego take you out of the game faster then a donkey pullin a load over your dumb ass.
I sure wish this post was about another cute puppy story but I just had to get this out in the open so to reduce the amount of stress it is putting on that ego saturated brain of mine.
Thx for stopping by. I plan on doing an article on here real soon so check back. I am waiting for one of my buds to do something spectacular so that I can write an article about them. Freddy came so frickin close the other day with his finish for $1700. GG Freddy my man. GG deal as well with all of your success in your wsop and Aruba classic satty's you have been taking down. I can't believe that your taking your wife to Aruba instead of me though....just kidding bud...
jd
The cards are flipped and he shows KK, the board runs 8TJ followed by fourth street of a Q followed by me slipping into the frickin river with a K.....Holy f'in crap. In staring at the screen for the rest of the match I found that I would have easily had over 2.5k in chips as a cushion.
I learned my lesson on this a while back when deal was teaching me the satty strategy where as I had it made in the shade and got dealt AA and decided to go against his advice and played the dam hand. The board went four diamonds and wouldn't you know it he had the fifth diamond to win the hand putting me out with only three to go. Took me hours to stop beating my head against the wall that night.
Oh well, I swore I learned my lesson that night but obv I didn't. So this only goes to confirm that the hardest element of this game is by far the self control aspect. It's one thing to get your chips in when ahead only to deal with the beats you take once in, but it is a completely different thing when playing satty's and knowing your safe and then let ego take you out of the game faster then a donkey pullin a load over your dumb ass.
I sure wish this post was about another cute puppy story but I just had to get this out in the open so to reduce the amount of stress it is putting on that ego saturated brain of mine.
Thx for stopping by. I plan on doing an article on here real soon so check back. I am waiting for one of my buds to do something spectacular so that I can write an article about them. Freddy came so frickin close the other day with his finish for $1700. GG Freddy my man. GG deal as well with all of your success in your wsop and Aruba classic satty's you have been taking down. I can't believe that your taking your wife to Aruba instead of me though....just kidding bud...
jd
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Introducing Tinkerbell.
So last Friday morning Suz and I headed to the airport to pick up her new baby. Yorkshire Terrier. We bought the puppy online from puppydirect.com and could not be happier with the process. Not only is it refined for security, the folks managing the site are totally awesome to work with. They sell puppies from breeders around the country and have the entire process down to a science. They even offer a lifetime guarantee on any puppy purchased through their web site. Here is a pic of the new addition to our household.
As you can see she looks just like me, all cute and shit…. This is Tinkerbell.
New Puppy Dress….$9.80
Price of Puppy……..$2,500.00
Photo of New Puppy………… priceless
As you can see she looks just like me, all cute and shit…. This is Tinkerbell.New Puppy Dress….$9.80
Price of Puppy……..$2,500.00
Photo of New Puppy………… priceless
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
God what a gorgeous smile…
Well Suz and I made it through the weekend but I cannot say it was easy by any means. Hell my gut has ached the entire weekend just observing what she had to go through. Friday was a terrible day for her but when compared to the rest of the weekend it was indeed a cake walk. There was one tooth that when pulled removed a portion of her upper jaw bone. This caused her to have some extreme swelling which started on Saturday. Come Sunday we were forced to call the emergency number for the dentist as her right eye became blacker and blacker by the minute. He set her mind at ease telling her that this was expected with the extreme difficulty he had removing one of the molars.
To give you a visual of what she looked like on Sunday, if you have ever seen a celebrity police snap shot after they have been picked up for a dui, she looked a lot like that. At one point her right cheek looked like she had been in a car wreak. Her right eye looked like she had been hit by Mike Tyson with all of his force. I swear she walked into a door; I never touched her….lol.
Today we are just beginning to see the damage recede. Her eye is starting to turn that brownish orange color now as compared to the red, black, and blue bruised cooler she had over the past three days which would indicate that she is now past the worse of it and should be looking great in a few more days. With all of the swelling she has had it has been difficult to even see her new teeth but when you do see them they are frickin gorgeous white and perfectly straight. She is going to look like a movie star once she gets the chance to fix herself up for the first time, which will be some time next week as my check from the sale of my Mom’s house arrived today and a celebration is being planed even as I type this.
I am also buying her a new puppy that I promised her for her last birthday. She wants a female Yorkie of course at a cost of around $1800 (update… as I was typing this she found the one she wants which resulted in her dbl’ing up to $3000). We are getting the female in an attempt to offset the original cost of the dog by hopefully having a litter or two and selling the offspring. Hey an in home business that she would actually enjoy doing. Nothing gets better then that.
In closing I guess I should begin to use my blog for poker related stuff as well. I started with $20 that was staked to me by my best buddy Deal a little over 5 months ago. I ran steady getting up to as high as $60 and down as low as $12 at one time playing nothing but $1.10 sng’s About a week and a half ago Deal suggested that I try out the $2.20 satty’s, similar to the $5.50r satty’s that he has been owning for the last couple of months. The satty’s I have been playing in start every hour until around 5 pm pst when they start playing every half hour. They are satellites into the Sunday Hundred Grand tourney with a buyin of $11. For every satty I win I go to the main tourney and unreg and the $11 is deposited into my real money account in the form of Tournament Dollars which are used for buyin’s before your cash balance is used.
In the last week and a half I have increased my br to over $170 with an ROI of somewhere around 53%. These tourneys have been like printing your own money. I have found not one match either here on stars or ap that have come close to such an easy variance. These tourneys have turned my slow and painful reduction of br into a steady cash cow. They have truly given me the sense of being a winning player at this most difficult game known as Texas Holden. Not sure how Texas became the State named in this extremely addictive game but gg Texas for pulling that off. My preference would have been California Holdem for sure. I will from this point forward be posting more poker related stuff as this was the intent of my blog in the first place. Every now and then I may post things of a personal nature as I have done the last few days but for the most part Suz and I have overcome one hell of a huge hurdle this week and there probably won’t be that much exciting things to write about as far as we go. My goal now is to get enough money into my account to make my first withdraw. That indeed will be a day to celebrate for sure. It will also be a day that I prove to my darling wife that I can and will become good enough to bring home some extra cash playing poker.
My final words for today’s post are these…. Suzanne my one in a million wife, I love you with all of my heart and cannot wait until your feeling up to our big night out. As always you will no doubt be the best looking gal in the room, however, this time I guarantee you that you will also feel like the best looking gal in the room for sure. Your smile looks like a million bucks baby….Love You Mean It!!!!
JoeDirt
To give you a visual of what she looked like on Sunday, if you have ever seen a celebrity police snap shot after they have been picked up for a dui, she looked a lot like that. At one point her right cheek looked like she had been in a car wreak. Her right eye looked like she had been hit by Mike Tyson with all of his force. I swear she walked into a door; I never touched her….lol.
Today we are just beginning to see the damage recede. Her eye is starting to turn that brownish orange color now as compared to the red, black, and blue bruised cooler she had over the past three days which would indicate that she is now past the worse of it and should be looking great in a few more days. With all of the swelling she has had it has been difficult to even see her new teeth but when you do see them they are frickin gorgeous white and perfectly straight. She is going to look like a movie star once she gets the chance to fix herself up for the first time, which will be some time next week as my check from the sale of my Mom’s house arrived today and a celebration is being planed even as I type this.
I am also buying her a new puppy that I promised her for her last birthday. She wants a female Yorkie of course at a cost of around $1800 (update… as I was typing this she found the one she wants which resulted in her dbl’ing up to $3000). We are getting the female in an attempt to offset the original cost of the dog by hopefully having a litter or two and selling the offspring. Hey an in home business that she would actually enjoy doing. Nothing gets better then that.
In closing I guess I should begin to use my blog for poker related stuff as well. I started with $20 that was staked to me by my best buddy Deal a little over 5 months ago. I ran steady getting up to as high as $60 and down as low as $12 at one time playing nothing but $1.10 sng’s About a week and a half ago Deal suggested that I try out the $2.20 satty’s, similar to the $5.50r satty’s that he has been owning for the last couple of months. The satty’s I have been playing in start every hour until around 5 pm pst when they start playing every half hour. They are satellites into the Sunday Hundred Grand tourney with a buyin of $11. For every satty I win I go to the main tourney and unreg and the $11 is deposited into my real money account in the form of Tournament Dollars which are used for buyin’s before your cash balance is used.
In the last week and a half I have increased my br to over $170 with an ROI of somewhere around 53%. These tourneys have been like printing your own money. I have found not one match either here on stars or ap that have come close to such an easy variance. These tourneys have turned my slow and painful reduction of br into a steady cash cow. They have truly given me the sense of being a winning player at this most difficult game known as Texas Holden. Not sure how Texas became the State named in this extremely addictive game but gg Texas for pulling that off. My preference would have been California Holdem for sure. I will from this point forward be posting more poker related stuff as this was the intent of my blog in the first place. Every now and then I may post things of a personal nature as I have done the last few days but for the most part Suz and I have overcome one hell of a huge hurdle this week and there probably won’t be that much exciting things to write about as far as we go. My goal now is to get enough money into my account to make my first withdraw. That indeed will be a day to celebrate for sure. It will also be a day that I prove to my darling wife that I can and will become good enough to bring home some extra cash playing poker.
My final words for today’s post are these…. Suzanne my one in a million wife, I love you with all of my heart and cannot wait until your feeling up to our big night out. As always you will no doubt be the best looking gal in the room, however, this time I guarantee you that you will also feel like the best looking gal in the room for sure. Your smile looks like a million bucks baby….Love You Mean It!!!!
JoeDirt
Friday, March 14, 2008
Things r lookin up!
First off Brandy came through her surgery with flying colors. In a lot of pain but for the most part the surgery was a great success. She now must change her diet in order to reduce the stress on her stomachs processing abilities but she started yesterday buying more fruits and vegetables so she is now going in the right direction.
Today on the other hand is a very big day for Suzanne and me. She is having all of her upper teeth pulled and replacing them with a denture. She is frickin out big time. She called the dentist yesterday and told them that she was having a melt down and they prescribed her some valium to take last night, one hour before her appointment and to bring the rest with her to her appointment should she need to take another while in the chair. We are two hours before her appointment and she seems to be doing fine at the moment. It could be a very long day for me for sure.
When all is said and done she should look gorgeous (not that she doesn’t now) with her new smile, not to mention the bonus I get once she heals….lol. I have been trying to talk her into this for years now but for her sake not mine btw. I will up date later as to how everything turns out. Wow it was supposed to rain this morning and the sun just now started shinning through the window….Things are truly lookin up….
Today on the other hand is a very big day for Suzanne and me. She is having all of her upper teeth pulled and replacing them with a denture. She is frickin out big time. She called the dentist yesterday and told them that she was having a melt down and they prescribed her some valium to take last night, one hour before her appointment and to bring the rest with her to her appointment should she need to take another while in the chair. We are two hours before her appointment and she seems to be doing fine at the moment. It could be a very long day for me for sure.
When all is said and done she should look gorgeous (not that she doesn’t now) with her new smile, not to mention the bonus I get once she heals….lol. I have been trying to talk her into this for years now but for her sake not mine btw. I will up date later as to how everything turns out. Wow it was supposed to rain this morning and the sun just now started shinning through the window….Things are truly lookin up….
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Brandy's Reply back to me
I reckon it would be appropriate to post my daughters reply back to me to complete the circle of this chapter in my life. I guess I should reveal the matter of which I refereed to in my letter to her regarding Kori so that you will understand what she is referring to in her reply. A couple of months ago I got a phone call from her stating that Kori had punched her during an argument. This was followed by telling her the next day that the next time he would toss her down the stairs. This matter has resulted in some unfinished business between him and I. Her request is typical in situations like this and gives me reason to be more afraid then ever now, but do I respect her request to let it go or continue to think of this incident as unfinished business in my mind. Her reply is as follows:
I LOVE YOU, YOU ARE THE BEST DAD ANY GIRL COULD EVER WANT. WHEN I WAS LITTLE AND MY MOM SENT ME TO YOUR HOUSE I WAS SO UPSET I DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHY MY MOM WAS SENDING ME AWAY TO GO LIVE WITH A MAN THAT I DIDNT EVEN REALLY REMEMBER AT THE TIME BUT IT WAS THE BEST THING MOM MY EVER DID FOR ME TO SEND ME TO LIVE WITH YOU. I KNOW THAT I AM THE PARENT AND WOMEN I AM TODAY BECAUSE OF YOU. PEOPLE CANT UNDERSTAND WHY WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENS IN MY LIFE I WANT TO TALK TO YOU ABOVE ANYONE ELSE, ITS BECAUSE I KNOW THAT YOU WILL TELL ME THE TRUTH NO MATER IF ITS NOT WHAT I WANT TO HEAR AND I KNOW THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME EVEN IF ITS JUST A PHONE CONVERSATION. THOSE PHONE CONVERSATIONS MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. I KNOW THAT AT ANYTIME YOU ARE JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY. THERE IS ONE THING I DO NEED TO ASK OF YOU AND I KNOW THAT THIS WILL BE HARD IS THAT YOU SAY NOTHING TO KORI WE HAVE MOVED PASS THAT AND BOTH OF US ARE TRYING TO CHANGE IN SOME WAY SO THAT WE CAN JUST LOVE EACH OTHER AND RASE OUR GIRLS. I KNOW THAT YOU ARE UPSET ABOUT WHAT HE DID TO ME AND AS A FATHER YOU WANT TO TEAR HIM A NEW ASS HOLE, BUT I HAVE FORGAVE HIM AND WE ARE JUST TRYING TO LEARN HOW TO FIGHT WITHOUT IT GOING TO FAR AND WE ARE DOING GOOD. I FEEL THAT IF YOU WHERE TO SAY SOMETHING TO HIM IT WOULD NOT ONLY MAKE IT UNCOMFERTABLE BETWEEN YOU TWO, BUT ALSO UPSET MY MARRAGE. I LOVE YOU DAD AND I KNOW THAT YOU ARE ONLY THINKING OF ME BUT I ASK YOU PLEASE DON'T SAY ANYTHING AND DONT HATE HIM BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH HE DID SO MUCH TO ME HE IS A REALLY GOOD HUSBAND. NOT MANY MEN WOULD OF STUCK NEXT TO ME LIKE HE HAS THROUGH EVERYTHING I HAVE TO GO THROUGH WITH THE TUMOR AND ALL THE MEDICAL PROUBLEMS I HAVE. PLUS HE IS A REALLY GOOD FATHER. HE STILL HAS SOME GROWING UP TO DO BUT SO DO I AND WE ARE GOING TO GROW AND LEARN TOGETHER. I LOVE YOU DAD MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!
I LOVE YOU, YOU ARE THE BEST DAD ANY GIRL COULD EVER WANT. WHEN I WAS LITTLE AND MY MOM SENT ME TO YOUR HOUSE I WAS SO UPSET I DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHY MY MOM WAS SENDING ME AWAY TO GO LIVE WITH A MAN THAT I DIDNT EVEN REALLY REMEMBER AT THE TIME BUT IT WAS THE BEST THING MOM MY EVER DID FOR ME TO SEND ME TO LIVE WITH YOU. I KNOW THAT I AM THE PARENT AND WOMEN I AM TODAY BECAUSE OF YOU. PEOPLE CANT UNDERSTAND WHY WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENS IN MY LIFE I WANT TO TALK TO YOU ABOVE ANYONE ELSE, ITS BECAUSE I KNOW THAT YOU WILL TELL ME THE TRUTH NO MATER IF ITS NOT WHAT I WANT TO HEAR AND I KNOW THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME EVEN IF ITS JUST A PHONE CONVERSATION. THOSE PHONE CONVERSATIONS MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. I KNOW THAT AT ANYTIME YOU ARE JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY. THERE IS ONE THING I DO NEED TO ASK OF YOU AND I KNOW THAT THIS WILL BE HARD IS THAT YOU SAY NOTHING TO KORI WE HAVE MOVED PASS THAT AND BOTH OF US ARE TRYING TO CHANGE IN SOME WAY SO THAT WE CAN JUST LOVE EACH OTHER AND RASE OUR GIRLS. I KNOW THAT YOU ARE UPSET ABOUT WHAT HE DID TO ME AND AS A FATHER YOU WANT TO TEAR HIM A NEW ASS HOLE, BUT I HAVE FORGAVE HIM AND WE ARE JUST TRYING TO LEARN HOW TO FIGHT WITHOUT IT GOING TO FAR AND WE ARE DOING GOOD. I FEEL THAT IF YOU WHERE TO SAY SOMETHING TO HIM IT WOULD NOT ONLY MAKE IT UNCOMFERTABLE BETWEEN YOU TWO, BUT ALSO UPSET MY MARRAGE. I LOVE YOU DAD AND I KNOW THAT YOU ARE ONLY THINKING OF ME BUT I ASK YOU PLEASE DON'T SAY ANYTHING AND DONT HATE HIM BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH HE DID SO MUCH TO ME HE IS A REALLY GOOD HUSBAND. NOT MANY MEN WOULD OF STUCK NEXT TO ME LIKE HE HAS THROUGH EVERYTHING I HAVE TO GO THROUGH WITH THE TUMOR AND ALL THE MEDICAL PROUBLEMS I HAVE. PLUS HE IS A REALLY GOOD FATHER. HE STILL HAS SOME GROWING UP TO DO BUT SO DO I AND WE ARE GOING TO GROW AND LEARN TOGETHER. I LOVE YOU DAD MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!
Monday, March 10, 2008
A Daughter Father Relationship
It is very clear that I am unsure as to what to place in my blog when considering what I am about to post today. This morning for some reason I am thinking of my blog as a place to post things that are important to me personally. After all it is my blog. If I wish to use it as a personal journal so be it. I have struggled with the posting of this content today because it has to do with some pretty dam personal stuff. However; a blog will never ever become famous or popular without something interesting to read even if that content exposes your private family and personal matters. Besides, Suzanne, Deal and Freddy are the only ones that will probably read this anyway, however I think I just came up with a fourth reader that being my daughter. There are however things in this post that I should not share with Deal or Freddy but I decided to post it anyway. If it changes our friendship then so be it. I am who I am. I may have been a little misdirected at times in my life but I am certainly not ashamed of how I have lived it. My Wife and my Daughter love me very much and are by far the two most important people in my life. To hurt either of them would be cause to stop living and that isn't happening anytime soon that I know of.
So here it is: My daughter is have gallbladder surgery on Wednesday and I cannot be there to help her through it. She shared a song by Carrie Underwood with me called All American Girl (which if interested you can here at cmt.com, search for Carrie Underwood all American girl and watch the video) which the words describe the relationship that my daughter and I have. This morning after listening to it I had to take some time to both get her ready for her surgery and to ease the pain I have inside of me for not being able to be there for her. Although the letter sounds like it is meant to ease her mind, it is truly to help me reduce the guilt I have inside for not being there for her during this time. I will paste it here now and end this post without any further comment. Just know that I have allowed the whole dam world to enter my life in a most personal way and I hope like hell that I never regret doing so...... The letter is as follows:
Thank You All American Girl. That song says it all it.
I need to now take some time to get you ready for your surgery. First and foremost, you need to understand (which I feel confident that you do) if there was anyway that I could be there without the fear of falling completely off of the cliff edge I would. I am so close to failure at the moment I can’t stand myself. Some say that all things happen as they do for a reason. I have lived my life not buying into those beliefs but as I continue to grow older that belief continues to creep into my head over and over again. With the Title Company moving back the closing date until the 20th it may very well be another setup for me to go out and spend money I don’t have only to find out it falls through or gets pushed back yet again. Who knows that could already be planned to happen for a reason, but I know one thing, until the money is in my hands I am not sure of anything anymore. Had Mom’s house closed escrow today I could have easily been on a plane tomorrow and been by your side for this scary event your about to go through. My biggest fear is that something is still yet to go wrong and if this deal does not close on the 20th I am in deep shit. I can only last to the end of this month before I cannot pay my mortgage let alone put food on the table.
I was awarded a contract job over three months ago that has yet to start which I gave up waiting on over a month ago. I could have easily had a job by now but I was stupid and continued to smoke the pot thinking that Mom’s house will sell and I would get my money with no problems. Then the pot became a continuous thing where as I was smoking it to hide from the depression. At any rate, I quite smoking pot about a month ago now and can now seek employment without fears of failing a drug test which I found is required anywhere you try to get a job at. This has been by far one of the stupidest things I have allowed myself to let happen. Never again!
I have to share something with you. There was this one day just after I rented the house on Eaton Ct. and you were due to move in with me the following week. A single guy with a drinking habit taking on a four year old was the scariest thing I think that I have ever had to deal with in my life. My new car had just been repossessed, I had just written a bad check for the house rental, and I had been using the u-haul with all of my stuff in it to drive around to look for houses which I didn’t have the money to pay for all the mileage that I had raked up. I found myself sitting in an empty house drinking beer I couldn’t afford to buy and the thought came to mind that all I need do was to walk over the over pass next to the house into the black area only blocks away and find a group of coloreds and say the right things to get myself killed. I didn’t own a gun so this seemed better then jumping off the overpass into on coming traffic. I deserved to feel the pain of a long slow death. I had wished that I could just go to sleep and never wake up but I knew that was not possible. I did fall asleep and woke up the next morning and got into the truck to take it back to the u-haul place where I was going to have to write this huge check for all the mileage of which there was no money in the bank to pay. When I got there they went out to write down the mileage for my bill and didn’t come back. I looked out the window and there were 5 people who worked there all crawling under the truck looking around. When they finally came back in they asked me what I had did to the truck. As it was I was suppose to have the truck brought back a week earlier but had all of my stuff in it with no place to stay so it was almost two weeks since I had rented it. They said the mileage was only 50 miles from what it was when it left the day I picked it up. They could not find anything that I did to the truck so they could only say that the speedometer broke on its own and I was only charged for the 50 miles. Hell I had filled up the gas tank at least three times during the two weeks I had the truck.
Something good finally happened for once. That night I sat in the house starring at nothing but boxes and I learned a life’s lesson. That was that tomorrow will always come no matter how bad things seem to be. Even the most impossible things seem to work themselves out no matter what. Things that we are responsible for will always be taken care of either by yourself or someone else. There is always another family member or friend that will pick up the slack even if it means putting themselves out. The loved ones that we would like to have around us during the worse of times can’t always be there for us once we have grown up and moved on with life. I was reminded of this after Mom died as well. I do not have a parent there for me for the rest of my life now. Everything I have to deal with from that day forward will have to done without them and no matter what, tomorrow will come and all my needs will be met one way or another, even if that means going that path all on my own.
Just know this you All American Girl, I have researched the operation that you are about to have on Wednesday and it is not life threatening. It is a routine operation of which you stand no chance at dieing from. If this was an operation of which there was a measurable amount of risk I would become homeless and live in a box without ever giving it a thought to be by your side even if that meant riding a 10 speed all the way to New Mexico. I would jump in my car and give blow jobs for gas money if that was the only way that I could get there. Being without me or your mom for this surgery only forces your family there to be a real family. Kori’s parents would never ever let their grand kids down at a time like this in fear that there is a chance that the kids would hate them for it. You are a true friend to your closest friends and do enough for them that they too can help you out during this horrible event.
My gut feeling tells me that they will be successful at performing this procedure with the laparoscopic technique and that you will come through this in flying colors. Should anything go wrong during the procedure and Kori calls me telling me that it is dire that I be there I will find a way to get there as fast as I can. I do have enough miles left to get one ticket anywhere I have to go but I have pretty much reserved that to be used in an emergency such as being forced to fly to be by your side or for suz to fly to one of her daughter’s sides in an emergency. If anything does go wrong and I am forced to come there I will have to face Kori with this huge feeling of hate that I have for him now and a confrontation will have to occur. Whether it is next week or years from now he has to answer to me for what he did to you. I will not forgive or forget this until which time I see him again, there is just no way around this.
So All American Girl, you keep your thoughts on good things and start planning your new diet. With what I have learned about losing your gallbladder you cannot eat fatty, high in cholesterol or junk food ever again. The bile that is produced by the gallbladder typically enables us to eat those foods without fear but when it is not there to produce the acids that dissolves those foods your stuck with eating good healthy foods like vegetables, potatoes or pasta and things like chicken or fish. This is very important.
I love you baby and will be on the edge of my seat waiting for the phone call telling me that everything went excellent. Make sure you work with the girls to get them ready for the things that they need to do to help you for the next week or two. Tape lists on their bedroom walls that they must do everyday no matter what. Promise them that once you are feeling better that they will be rewarded for all of the extra things they have had to do. Chucky Cheese or an afternoon doing something that they don’t get to do very often and love to do is a must. Tell them that they have to act all grown up for the next week or two and show Mom the love that she shows them every single day. It’s their turn to be a mom for a week and mom gets to be their child to take care of and love like their own. Kind of like reversing rolls for a week.
I hope that I have been able to help in some small way to cope with the weeks to come. I have not abandoned you baby and will be there in an instant if anything goes wrong I promise. Take the time to ensure that everyone there has there assignments for the next couple of weeks and make sure that there is nothing expected of you for that entire time. Everything that you do on a daily basis must be done by someone else. The time you spend planning and thinking of who is a perfect fit for that particular job will keep your mind busy until Wednesday. Keeping your mind busy thinking of those things will help to keep you from thinking of the scary things. Everything will be just fine I promise.
I Love You All American Girl and thanks for sharing the song with me. It made my heart swell and reminds me of just how special you are to me. Remember our motto; “It’s You and Me against the world Baby, now and forever”….
Love Dad
So here it is: My daughter is have gallbladder surgery on Wednesday and I cannot be there to help her through it. She shared a song by Carrie Underwood with me called All American Girl (which if interested you can here at cmt.com, search for Carrie Underwood all American girl and watch the video) which the words describe the relationship that my daughter and I have. This morning after listening to it I had to take some time to both get her ready for her surgery and to ease the pain I have inside of me for not being able to be there for her. Although the letter sounds like it is meant to ease her mind, it is truly to help me reduce the guilt I have inside for not being there for her during this time. I will paste it here now and end this post without any further comment. Just know that I have allowed the whole dam world to enter my life in a most personal way and I hope like hell that I never regret doing so...... The letter is as follows:
Thank You All American Girl. That song says it all it.
I need to now take some time to get you ready for your surgery. First and foremost, you need to understand (which I feel confident that you do) if there was anyway that I could be there without the fear of falling completely off of the cliff edge I would. I am so close to failure at the moment I can’t stand myself. Some say that all things happen as they do for a reason. I have lived my life not buying into those beliefs but as I continue to grow older that belief continues to creep into my head over and over again. With the Title Company moving back the closing date until the 20th it may very well be another setup for me to go out and spend money I don’t have only to find out it falls through or gets pushed back yet again. Who knows that could already be planned to happen for a reason, but I know one thing, until the money is in my hands I am not sure of anything anymore. Had Mom’s house closed escrow today I could have easily been on a plane tomorrow and been by your side for this scary event your about to go through. My biggest fear is that something is still yet to go wrong and if this deal does not close on the 20th I am in deep shit. I can only last to the end of this month before I cannot pay my mortgage let alone put food on the table.
I was awarded a contract job over three months ago that has yet to start which I gave up waiting on over a month ago. I could have easily had a job by now but I was stupid and continued to smoke the pot thinking that Mom’s house will sell and I would get my money with no problems. Then the pot became a continuous thing where as I was smoking it to hide from the depression. At any rate, I quite smoking pot about a month ago now and can now seek employment without fears of failing a drug test which I found is required anywhere you try to get a job at. This has been by far one of the stupidest things I have allowed myself to let happen. Never again!
I have to share something with you. There was this one day just after I rented the house on Eaton Ct. and you were due to move in with me the following week. A single guy with a drinking habit taking on a four year old was the scariest thing I think that I have ever had to deal with in my life. My new car had just been repossessed, I had just written a bad check for the house rental, and I had been using the u-haul with all of my stuff in it to drive around to look for houses which I didn’t have the money to pay for all the mileage that I had raked up. I found myself sitting in an empty house drinking beer I couldn’t afford to buy and the thought came to mind that all I need do was to walk over the over pass next to the house into the black area only blocks away and find a group of coloreds and say the right things to get myself killed. I didn’t own a gun so this seemed better then jumping off the overpass into on coming traffic. I deserved to feel the pain of a long slow death. I had wished that I could just go to sleep and never wake up but I knew that was not possible. I did fall asleep and woke up the next morning and got into the truck to take it back to the u-haul place where I was going to have to write this huge check for all the mileage of which there was no money in the bank to pay. When I got there they went out to write down the mileage for my bill and didn’t come back. I looked out the window and there were 5 people who worked there all crawling under the truck looking around. When they finally came back in they asked me what I had did to the truck. As it was I was suppose to have the truck brought back a week earlier but had all of my stuff in it with no place to stay so it was almost two weeks since I had rented it. They said the mileage was only 50 miles from what it was when it left the day I picked it up. They could not find anything that I did to the truck so they could only say that the speedometer broke on its own and I was only charged for the 50 miles. Hell I had filled up the gas tank at least three times during the two weeks I had the truck.
Something good finally happened for once. That night I sat in the house starring at nothing but boxes and I learned a life’s lesson. That was that tomorrow will always come no matter how bad things seem to be. Even the most impossible things seem to work themselves out no matter what. Things that we are responsible for will always be taken care of either by yourself or someone else. There is always another family member or friend that will pick up the slack even if it means putting themselves out. The loved ones that we would like to have around us during the worse of times can’t always be there for us once we have grown up and moved on with life. I was reminded of this after Mom died as well. I do not have a parent there for me for the rest of my life now. Everything I have to deal with from that day forward will have to done without them and no matter what, tomorrow will come and all my needs will be met one way or another, even if that means going that path all on my own.
Just know this you All American Girl, I have researched the operation that you are about to have on Wednesday and it is not life threatening. It is a routine operation of which you stand no chance at dieing from. If this was an operation of which there was a measurable amount of risk I would become homeless and live in a box without ever giving it a thought to be by your side even if that meant riding a 10 speed all the way to New Mexico. I would jump in my car and give blow jobs for gas money if that was the only way that I could get there. Being without me or your mom for this surgery only forces your family there to be a real family. Kori’s parents would never ever let their grand kids down at a time like this in fear that there is a chance that the kids would hate them for it. You are a true friend to your closest friends and do enough for them that they too can help you out during this horrible event.
My gut feeling tells me that they will be successful at performing this procedure with the laparoscopic technique and that you will come through this in flying colors. Should anything go wrong during the procedure and Kori calls me telling me that it is dire that I be there I will find a way to get there as fast as I can. I do have enough miles left to get one ticket anywhere I have to go but I have pretty much reserved that to be used in an emergency such as being forced to fly to be by your side or for suz to fly to one of her daughter’s sides in an emergency. If anything does go wrong and I am forced to come there I will have to face Kori with this huge feeling of hate that I have for him now and a confrontation will have to occur. Whether it is next week or years from now he has to answer to me for what he did to you. I will not forgive or forget this until which time I see him again, there is just no way around this.
So All American Girl, you keep your thoughts on good things and start planning your new diet. With what I have learned about losing your gallbladder you cannot eat fatty, high in cholesterol or junk food ever again. The bile that is produced by the gallbladder typically enables us to eat those foods without fear but when it is not there to produce the acids that dissolves those foods your stuck with eating good healthy foods like vegetables, potatoes or pasta and things like chicken or fish. This is very important.
I love you baby and will be on the edge of my seat waiting for the phone call telling me that everything went excellent. Make sure you work with the girls to get them ready for the things that they need to do to help you for the next week or two. Tape lists on their bedroom walls that they must do everyday no matter what. Promise them that once you are feeling better that they will be rewarded for all of the extra things they have had to do. Chucky Cheese or an afternoon doing something that they don’t get to do very often and love to do is a must. Tell them that they have to act all grown up for the next week or two and show Mom the love that she shows them every single day. It’s their turn to be a mom for a week and mom gets to be their child to take care of and love like their own. Kind of like reversing rolls for a week.
I hope that I have been able to help in some small way to cope with the weeks to come. I have not abandoned you baby and will be there in an instant if anything goes wrong I promise. Take the time to ensure that everyone there has there assignments for the next couple of weeks and make sure that there is nothing expected of you for that entire time. Everything that you do on a daily basis must be done by someone else. The time you spend planning and thinking of who is a perfect fit for that particular job will keep your mind busy until Wednesday. Keeping your mind busy thinking of those things will help to keep you from thinking of the scary things. Everything will be just fine I promise.
I Love You All American Girl and thanks for sharing the song with me. It made my heart swell and reminds me of just how special you are to me. Remember our motto; “It’s You and Me against the world Baby, now and forever”….
Love Dad
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Blog Dog In The House
I have noticed recently that blog's and poker go hand in hand. In order to be added to someone's buddy list on their poker blog you must first have a blog... go figure. Although that is not my primary reason for starting a blog, I also have noticed that once you begin winning some cash at the tables you get this feeling from deep inside yourself that begins to want to push this blog idea out into the open, again not my main reason for starting a blog. There is a chance that once you start winning there could very well be something someone would like to hear you talk about, but not my primary reason for starting a blog.
My main reason for starting a blog is because all of the great players along with every other tom dick and hairy have their own blog's and besides I wanted to look really cool for my wife and daughter....lol.
Throughout the last year and a half since starting my poker hobby (yes hobby cause you got to win to be in) I have hung out at a few forums and forced my long winded posts on more then just a few undeserving souls. I have this problem with getting way deeper into a subject then most would ever allow themselves to do. Even the smallest of points tend to run well over a page in length. However, I have had a tremendous amount of positive feedback regarding the style in which I write.
So for some time now I have thought of starting a blog just to see what kind of draw it would actually bring. I just didn't have a subject in which to use to start the dam thing, but now In the last couple of days I have finally found a subject to write about, that being me and the unbelievable change that my BR has experience.
I have played hold-em for going on 15 months now. My play has never once had a lick of confidence at the tables. I haven't lost a lot of money in comparison to most peoples standards other then my lovely wife Suzanne's, but all in all I have remained a losing player for this entire time. I have placed high in a few mtt's, remained constant at sng's for months on end working a window of about twenty to thirty dollar plus and minus, but never found a level in which I could consistently over time increase my BR on a gradual basis.
That was not until this last Friday. I should mention that my two closest poker buddy's are Dealace1 or Dealisup and Freddy James. Deal is my primary mentor of whom works with me on a daily basis to improve my skills at the tables. Freddy is a very close and dear friend of whom I feel like I have known all my life. Anyway, in watching deal over the last couple of months just killing the Stars Satty's there, where as once you win a satty you are automatically entered into a larger weekly tournement of which exclusive to stars online poker site you can unregister from the bigger tourney you just qualified for and the buyin is place into your poker account in the form of Tournement Dollars. Tournement Dollars cannot be withdrawn the same as cash but do however pay for any and all buyins before using the actual cash balance from your real money poker account. This restriction does require you to convert T$ into cash should you wish to make a withdraw and that is done by entering and placing in the money in sng's or mtt's.
At anyrate, Deal got me to understand that if I were to qualify two satty's out of every five I played in I would begin to see an increase in my BR. The cost of the Satty is only a dollar more then the buck twenty sng's I have been playing for months of which I continue to swing up and down the same $30 month after month. I took his advice and lost the first two I tried. The change occured on Friday when my lovely wife recommended that I go in and make her some money. She never invites me to play guilt free poker so she never saw me the rest of the day. I entered satty after satty, on Friday and finished 4 out of 6 matches ftw. This was followed by a Saturday Afternoon session of 7 matches, winning 5 of those. So the only way that I could get the excitement out of my head was to distract myself and start this blog, which has already gone long enough for the first post, thus the reason for the change in gears here.
If anything this will be my place to come and log things of importance, clear my mind, and rant like hell when I start losing all of the momentun I have recently gathered. As of this moment I am not even sure whether I will even tell many that it exists. Deal will be the only poor sap that I am sure will stop by to see what the hell I said about him, which once you get to this line buddy, please know that I have appreciated and will continue to appreciate every minute of time you invest in me. I may be slow at times but I have started placing the yellow sticky notes on my monitor as suggested. Eventually I will get it and you will begin to feel the satisfaction of bringing a donkey to the rodeo.
That is all, check back in a year or two because I have learned from all my buddys blogs that it takes some time for this to catch on and receive the updates on a regular basis. I will do my best but then again my Beautiful Wife comes first, followed by my friends and then poker. My wife has suggested that a Job should begin following immdiately after her but I haven't bought into that yet.
Thx for stopping by and hope to see you again.....jd
My main reason for starting a blog is because all of the great players along with every other tom dick and hairy have their own blog's and besides I wanted to look really cool for my wife and daughter....lol.
Throughout the last year and a half since starting my poker hobby (yes hobby cause you got to win to be in) I have hung out at a few forums and forced my long winded posts on more then just a few undeserving souls. I have this problem with getting way deeper into a subject then most would ever allow themselves to do. Even the smallest of points tend to run well over a page in length. However, I have had a tremendous amount of positive feedback regarding the style in which I write.
So for some time now I have thought of starting a blog just to see what kind of draw it would actually bring. I just didn't have a subject in which to use to start the dam thing, but now In the last couple of days I have finally found a subject to write about, that being me and the unbelievable change that my BR has experience.
I have played hold-em for going on 15 months now. My play has never once had a lick of confidence at the tables. I haven't lost a lot of money in comparison to most peoples standards other then my lovely wife Suzanne's, but all in all I have remained a losing player for this entire time. I have placed high in a few mtt's, remained constant at sng's for months on end working a window of about twenty to thirty dollar plus and minus, but never found a level in which I could consistently over time increase my BR on a gradual basis.
That was not until this last Friday. I should mention that my two closest poker buddy's are Dealace1 or Dealisup and Freddy James. Deal is my primary mentor of whom works with me on a daily basis to improve my skills at the tables. Freddy is a very close and dear friend of whom I feel like I have known all my life. Anyway, in watching deal over the last couple of months just killing the Stars Satty's there, where as once you win a satty you are automatically entered into a larger weekly tournement of which exclusive to stars online poker site you can unregister from the bigger tourney you just qualified for and the buyin is place into your poker account in the form of Tournement Dollars. Tournement Dollars cannot be withdrawn the same as cash but do however pay for any and all buyins before using the actual cash balance from your real money poker account. This restriction does require you to convert T$ into cash should you wish to make a withdraw and that is done by entering and placing in the money in sng's or mtt's.
At anyrate, Deal got me to understand that if I were to qualify two satty's out of every five I played in I would begin to see an increase in my BR. The cost of the Satty is only a dollar more then the buck twenty sng's I have been playing for months of which I continue to swing up and down the same $30 month after month. I took his advice and lost the first two I tried. The change occured on Friday when my lovely wife recommended that I go in and make her some money. She never invites me to play guilt free poker so she never saw me the rest of the day. I entered satty after satty, on Friday and finished 4 out of 6 matches ftw. This was followed by a Saturday Afternoon session of 7 matches, winning 5 of those. So the only way that I could get the excitement out of my head was to distract myself and start this blog, which has already gone long enough for the first post, thus the reason for the change in gears here.
If anything this will be my place to come and log things of importance, clear my mind, and rant like hell when I start losing all of the momentun I have recently gathered. As of this moment I am not even sure whether I will even tell many that it exists. Deal will be the only poor sap that I am sure will stop by to see what the hell I said about him, which once you get to this line buddy, please know that I have appreciated and will continue to appreciate every minute of time you invest in me. I may be slow at times but I have started placing the yellow sticky notes on my monitor as suggested. Eventually I will get it and you will begin to feel the satisfaction of bringing a donkey to the rodeo.
That is all, check back in a year or two because I have learned from all my buddys blogs that it takes some time for this to catch on and receive the updates on a regular basis. I will do my best but then again my Beautiful Wife comes first, followed by my friends and then poker. My wife has suggested that a Job should begin following immdiately after her but I haven't bought into that yet.
Thx for stopping by and hope to see you again.....jd
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